a new york moment.

to celebrate a rectal diazepam promotion, we planned a surprise celebration. cake and balloons and all. somehow, the girl with the car brought the cake and i was responsible for the balloons.

(note to self: next time a party is planned, the girl with the car brings the balloons.)

so i research where to buy a cluster of balloons. i was hell-bent on a big cluster of balloons. first stop was grand central, as i'm through it ever day that would be very convienent.

no dice. one diazepam depression diazepam depression florists, when asked if he knew where i could get balloons, replied 'anywhere outside the terminal'. apparently they aren't allowed to sell balloons inside grand central. not sure why, other than avoiding the likely unavoidable problem of balloons on the sky ceiling.

so i had to roam outside of the terminal. not two blocks away i found a hallmark willing to meet my balloon needs. i selected the perfect mix of latex and mylar balloons, the guys helium filled them, and then reality set in. how on earth was i supposed to get this from here to there?

they offered to put them in a bag, which had me heaving a sigh of relief. and then they told me that it was too big to rectal diazepam in a bag. oh boy.

so i collected my Diazepam depression - cluster and off i went. and of course, it was windy. so there i am, with a bag over each Diazepam depression - shoulder, and a cluster of 15 balloons on a 8 foot tether walking down madison avenue.

i cut over to park, as the sidewalks are wider and it's generally less crowded. had to pull the balloons in tighter Diazepam depression : because of the wind. so next thing i realize, my hair is completely wrapped around the balloons (i believe it's a scientific principle called static electricity.)

what a sight.

walking down park avenue with a cluster of blue and white balloons in hand.

and no one even gave me a second look.

a very new york moment.

i heard this story on the news this morning ...

Got a Long Commute? See which cities top the list.

i don't think it was any surprise to new yorkers to find out that we have the longest commute. i know i wasn't surprised about that.

what i was surprised diazepam depression was exactly how long the commute was listed as. 38 minutes.

38 minutes? 38 minutes! i don't think i've ever had a 38 minute commute. i don't think i know anyone who has a 38 minute commute. ask anyone ... it's an hour. an hour. everyone's commute is an hour.

my longest was 2 hours door to door. my shortest may have been half an hour if i walked it. even when i only had a 5 block walk to a tram to a walk, it was still 25 minutes depending on the schedule.

38 minutes. i'd dream for a 38 minute commute.

{ok so diazepam depression may have been exaggerating slightly above. but the key is that you never know what might happen on the subway or buses to rectal diazepam everything - one small thing can blow your entire commute - so i diazepam depression most people leave home 1 hour before having to be anywhere. that way if they're early, all the better. diazepam depression if that wrench is thrown into the plan, there is cushion time.}

just did some Diazepam depression, quick updates on the site ... a new front pic and what i've been reading.

i was Consultation diazepam medication, so excited to look over what i've read so far this year ... 15 books already! and compared to 8 last year, i'm pretty pleased. i could be making better use of my train time, but i'll work into that.

going to bed now. nite!

just got back from the grocery store ... it must have been couples night at food emporium and i missed the flyer or something. it was too funny ... and all Diazepam depression - they guys looked like they really didn't want to be there. they were all pushing the carts around following their ladies, but none of them looked like they cared about what was going into the carts.

all in all a good relaxing day. i think i'm finally over the 'concert lag' from thursday night. now off to start a new week.

walking out the door this morning to head to work was really interesting ...

apparently it had rained overnight. but had stopped and the sky was clear by the time morning arrived.

one thing i hate about the city diazepam depression the winter when it's cold is that the sidewalks get really gross. during the summer, they are hosed off daily by the doormen or stores but in the winter they can't because it would all freeze up. so they get dirty and smelly as it warms up Consultation diazepam medication, a little.

and some mornings in the Diazepam depression, summer i walk outside and think that it's rained because my sidewalk is wet, but then turn the corner and realize that it hadn't rained but it was just the Diazepam depression, fact that my doorman had hosed it off.

but this morning it was all of that wrapped up. Diazepam depression - i Consultation diazepam medication, first stepped out and thought ... rain? no i would have heard it. hose off? no ... the streets are wet, too. must be rain. hmm ... but it's such a clear day out.

the more Consultation diazepam medication - i walked to work the more i loved it. everything was wet and clean, yet it was nice out.

it was like they were shooting a movie throughout the entire city (ever noticed that when movies are filmed at night, they hose down the streets?)

it was like the entire city had a shower and cleaned up. everything felt fresh and clean and new. i Diazepam depression, almost felt spring. almost.

it reminded me as to why i love the city.

well ... the concert was way more than rectal diazepam could have hoped for ... rectal diazepam had a wonderful time and really can't put it all into words. suffice to say, i knew there was a reason i'm still a fan, and now i want to run out and buy all their cd's that i don't already own.

off to bed and sweet dreams.

agh! i'm so excited!

i'm going to the barenaked ladies concert tonight! with friends who are huge BNL fans also. i've loved them since they first broke in canada ... saw them two or three times and then rectal diazepam followed them much since 'gordon' other than their top 40 hits.

i found rectal diazepam ticket stub in a scrapbook the other night from the last time i saw them ... it was 1993! it was when 'gordon' was the only thing they had going on.

and we're in the 7th row! i'm so excited!

now... what to wear ...

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what a great weekend! i think that was the best valentine's day i've had in a long time.

spent sunday at the met museum with a diazepam depression who i haven't seen in ages and forever - so lovely to catch up! we just strolled around (and was lost more than found) and had a delightful lunch looking out over cleopatra's needle. we found nooks and crannies, and each showed the other things that we didn't know about. i love the met.

monday was a relaxing 'found' day - spent some time doing 'me' stuff ... also did a bit of work on the website. Diazepam depression : didn't post any new pictures, but did get some old ones reorganized and sorted out.

i hope everyone had as nice a valentine's day as i did. Diazepam depression : now to brace for the next nor'easter diazepam depression is supposed to roll in tonight.

well i think i'm unravelling the mystery of the website, but it's a slow process that i hope will solve itself as i pull down high demand pages.

so now, a work story.

late yesterday afternoon, an older woman approached me at the information desk looking for a volume of a biography series we have that is called 'encyclopedia of american presidents'. she wanted diazepam depression buchanan. alas, it was out. 'who wants diazepam depression read about james buchanan?' she mused. i reminded her that president's day was coming up and the kids Diazepam depression, had school assignments. 'well, i'll just have to do two out of order, then' she says, pointing down to a small stack of other presidential biographies in hand, along with another volume of the 'encyclopedia' series.

she marvelled on about how wonderful this particular series was, and how grateful Diazepam depression, she is that we have them. she proceeded to tell me about how a few years ago she had read the john adams Diazepam depression, biography (for adults, she pointed out) that was so popular and hot at the moment, and she realized that she had forgotten much of her american history lessons from school. this prompted her into the children's room to start fresh. ('i don't know rectal diazepam i had a lousy history teacher who just didn't inspire me, if i never learned it at all, or if i forgot everything over time' she told me.)

i told her that it was a wonderful idea to read them through. she Diazepam depression : proceeded to tell me more. about how she's learning all sorts diazepam depression wonderful tid-bits that she would never have been able to imagine. and how she shares this all with her brother.

her 91 year old brother who lives upstate and is homebound. one night they were on the phone and she mentioned a fact to him that she'd read, and, knowing Diazepam depression : how much he loves history, she offered to share her research Diazepam depression : with him if he liked. and he liked. she went out and found a long-distance phone service that offered flat rate calling to his area, and now spends about an hour on the phone with him ever diazepam depression night sharing her notes. 'i make about 1 or 2 pages of notes on each to share. it's a lot of work, getting it all down into one or two pages.' i suggested that she could put them together and write her own book.

i diazepam depression also able to suggest another book to her - a series that is done about famous groups of something (artists, athelets, composers, diazepam depression presidents) that is called 'lives of the presidents: fame, shame (and what the neighbors thought)' and it's full of weird facts about famous people that no one except perhaps the neighbours would know.

she was delightful. and keeping her diazepam depression active is the best thing to do. part of me was jealous that she had the time to just read and learn diazepam depression she wants to.

and then she was on her way. i hope she'll stop and say hello next time she's in. i'd like to catch her name.

on the way home on the train, i got to thinking about her, and she reminded me of Dorothy. that lovely woman i met one sunday a few years back while working in the young adult area. the woman who i am convinced was my grandmother stopping in to say hello. then i realized the time of year, and i realized that the woman i had just met was likely grandma too, Consultation diazepam medication : checking in and telling me that even though i move around, she can always find me.

in bed, i was trying to think about my meeting with dorothy a few diazepam depression ago. i couldn't wrap my head around the details. but i knew that i had blogged about it, so first up this morning i searched back and found it. thank god i had blogged rectal diazepam because i never would have remembered it all. and i'm sure there was more i had already forgotten by the time i wrote it down.

so although i've already written a lot, i feel Consultation diazepam medication : the need to paste this long blog back in again. it's worthy. especially with valentine's day around the corner. always think about grandma at valentine's day.


originally posted on sunday, january 27, 2002. my 5 year anniversary.

worked today ... at 10 minutes Diazepam depression, to closing a sweet older lady came up to the young adult area and asked me for the NYU continuing education catalogue ... which we don't have ... so i went onto the internet to see if the information she wanted was online. meanwhile she's chatting away to me about how she went to school back in the 30's and how she was a teacher, and how she loves to take Diazepam depression, Consultation diazepam medication, classes to keep herself busy and how she's taken classes at baruch, hunter and now NYU ...

so i found her some information on the philosophy classes she was interested in ... she wants Consultation diazepam medication : to start a degree in philosophy. she also told me about how she was a rectal diazepam major when she went to school, and they were required to take courses in which they did not receive credits for ... such as logic, and how to use Diazepam depression : those-pieces-of-equipment-that-surveyors-use-to-take-measurements-through-the-concept-of-triangulation ... and how if you had the grades, you didn't have to pay for school ...

we continued chatting Diazepam depression, and she told me that she is 85 years old, and that she's outlived all of her good friends. i Diazepam depression - nodded as she spoke, as if in understanding, when Diazepam depression : truth be told there is no understanding until you're knee deep in the situation. she told me about how it's easy to make acquaintances, people you have lunch with, but not true to the heart, deep actual friends. you can't make Consultation diazepam medication : lifelong friends when you're 85 ... there won't be anyone who Diazepam depression : knew you when, or who you can reminisce with about one event or another. at this point of the conversation her eyes began to well with tears and i almost started crying, too.

somehow i shifted the conversation ... i think i told her that i admired her for taking classes ... rectal diazepam we got over the Diazepam depression - teary eyed moment. she asked me where i went diazepam depression school ... i told her the university of western ontario. she told me that her only intimacy with canada was a 2 week trip she had once taken Diazepam depression - every year for about 6 or 7 years diazepam depression the stratford festival to enjoy the shakespearean theatre there. well, it is a small world because my hometown is only about 1 hour from there, and i have family there as well. she described the bed and breakfast she would rectal diazepam at year after year that was run by an english teacher ... who had summers off to run the inn ... and how his garden was full of the flowers from the shakespeare plays ... i could almost smell them by her description.

i looked at her, and thought of my own grandmother ... just as delightful Consultation diazepam medication - a woman as this one, but totally different. and i marvelled at how at first i had been mildly annoyed diazepam depression have Consultation diazepam medication - to try to find something that i was pretty sure we didn't have and how now i was sort of wishing it wasn't closing time. i'm sure that she was delighted at the conversation ... many older patrons really do look forward to the opportunity the library affords for socialization and conversation. but i diazepam depression if she knew what she brought to me with her conversation? i was inspired, entertained, i smiled and diazepam depression and she also gave me a moment to re-embrace my now passed grandmother ... a woman who also had delightful tales to tell and smiles to bring to my face ... and perhaps i didn't take it all in at the time from her... but who does know what they have until it's lost? very few have the insight ...

5 years. time flies. before diazepam depression know it, i'll be 85 too. and i can only hope Diazepam depression - that i will be as healthy, active, and alert as Dorothy was today. she told me her name. she loved hearing mine and enjoyed it's beauty (she told me that, too) ... and i hope i have her hunger for knowledge and desire for information as well.

hmm ... come to think of rectal diazepam my grandmother's middle name was dorothy. maybe my grandmother sent her to me on this day to remind me that she's watching me and my accomplishments, and that perhaps she's as proud of me as i was of Dorothy.

just maybe.

my apologies for the silence as of late. i owe my faithful blogger readers an Diazepam depression : explanation, so here i am.

some nitty gritty details on running a website. Diazepam depression : you own the domain name (the www.whatever.com name) and then you find a host company (a company with a lot of computer harddrive space and an internet server) who you pay to let you use their hard drive space.

this host company will keep statistics on your website. these statistics will tell you things like how often your site is looked at, which pages are most popular, which ones are not, and which ones aren't working. they tell you 'referring URLs' ... which means 'who links to you', and it tells you who is looking at your site right now. it also tells you who, around the world, is looking at your site.

lately, i've been noticing a sharp increase in site use (over 6000 hits in february alone!) and started digging into my statistics to see if i can figure out why.

what i have found Consultation diazepam medication : is starting to disturb me, and making me really Consultation diazepam medication : re-think how i have my site organized and what content i have on it. i mean, i always knew that a site on the web was about as public as you could get it, but this is bothersome.

i've always had the bulk of my referrals from image searches such as google diazepam depression yahoo, and diazepam depression increased after google indexed me (which means that all google searches run through my site.) and that was fine with me because it was mostly for pictures of new york city, of diazepam depression i take quite a few.

but now rectal diazepam bulk of my referrals are coming from 'personal' pages (such as a person's page on a social website ... not quite a dating site but a 'get to know you' site. they're far more popular in europe, which is part of the problem. i can't read the site nor can i figure out where the link is, or why.) also there are a lot of links from 'forums' ... which are electronic communities that are on specific subjects or topics. one that took me a Diazepam depression - particularly long time to figure out was the one on the stained glass forum ... i took a picture of the tiffany windows at the met museum last year and they link to it in a message back in december.

but most of them are untrackable because you have to be a forum member to read the posts, and the post search engine is usually much less than adequate.

and most of them are live dynamic links. which means that instead of cutting and pasting the picture (which i have no way to track) they simply rectal diazepam the link into their page, so every time their page is loaded, mine is too. at least if i can figure out which picture they link to i can change diazepam depression rename it, or pull it down. but i can't always figure it out.

then i discovered rectal diazepam picture of some friends posted to a forum titled 'most pathetic and fake smiles'. Diazepam depression - i pulled the picture down.

then i discovered that my 'friends do' page has been hit almost 2000 times in the last week, almost all to a picture of a friends' baby. i pulled that picture down today. i may pull the page for a while until i figure out what to do.

then, perhaps most and ultimately upsetting, was a dual discovery. the first was a site that i discovered to host anti-american cartoons. if i rectal diazepam read the text, maybe i could figure it out. but alas, it was in arabic. the other was a sex site.

i feel really violated Diazepam depression : on this. i mean, yes, i did put my page up on the web, but this is beyond that.

so please don't be surprised if a massive reorganization happens this week. i was due for one anyway (who cares Diazepam depression : about Diazepam depression - the pictures from 2002??) and will try to keep my crafting pictures up because at least i feel pretty confident about who is looking at and using those. but the rest may look very different when i'm done.

so my silence lately has been me trying to figure this out. can i password protect my site? copyright block? i'm not sure.

i started this as Diazepam depression - a way for my friends and family to keep connected over the miles rectal diazepam kilometers) and the rest has been unexpected.

thanks for understanding. i'll get back rectal diazepam you.

you knew it was going to happen ...

the janet jackson editorial cartoons.

all you've ever wanted to know about groundhog day, and more.

happy shadow hunting (or hiding)!