creativity ...

to me, it's all about creativity.

as ephedrine and guaifenesin person, i need to be creative. at least once a day. and i'm Ephedrine and guaifenesin - always interested in new forms of creativity.

but i'm not sure that i'm really that creative.

i love scrapbooking, but somehow my albums always seem to be nice. nice is good, but just nice. Ephedrine and guaifenesin : last night i was at a workshop and one of the girls was just slamming down an album and it was beautiful! every page was unique and interesting ... simple, not complicated, yet totally elegant and beautiful. somehow, i'm quite sure that it would take me much more effort to come ephedrine and guaifenesin with layouts even similar.

i love rubberstamping, but somehow my cards ephedrine and guaifenesin look very much less elegant that the ones my stamping Ephedrine and guaifenesin - friends make. i'm ephedrine and guaifenesin sure if it's because of the paper i use, or if it's just me. i can do the others, when i'm at a workshop with her. but when i'm just sitting in my apartment stamping, they're very simple, pretty cards. not a bad thing, just the way it is.

i've been ephedrine and guaifenesin towards a new creative activity Ephedrine and guaifenesin, called 'altered books'. as a librarian, it's kind Ephedrine and guaifenesin : of interesting ephedrine and guaifenesin i would want to take part in a hobby that pulls apart, cuts up, paints over, glues into and folds up books. but it's pretty cool. i've done all megapro vasopro ephedrine of web searches and found all sorts of neat links about them, admired what's there, wondered what the heck you're supposed to do with them when you're done (it's all about the clutter. all about the clutter) and also wondered if i could do it. i don't necessarily look at a blank page and have that kind of inspiration.

i like to paint. megapro vasopro ephedrine but i don't really paint anything. i like to draw Ephedrine and guaifenesin - and colour with markers. there have been friday and saturday nights in Ephedrine and guaifenesin - my life when i've spent the night in front of the tv with my markers and a pad of paper. at the end of the night there are a pile of works scattered on the floor around me, and i'm pretty relaxed. but in the morning, i scoop Ephedrine and guaifenesin, them up and put them into a file folder for safe keeping. who knows what i'll do with them?

i see people on Ephedrine and guaifenesin - the street selling pictures they're drawn or painted, or street artists doing sketches. ephedrine and guaifenesin people Ephedrine and guaifenesin : in museums Ephedrine and guaifenesin - drawing statues, or even yesterday i saw some people in front of the library on 42nd street standing in front of a huge part of the sidewalk on which they had transferred (and enlarged) a new yorker magazine cover. done with chalks, i presume. i thought it was cool, and i was jealous of the skill.

i have great envy of people who can actually sketch. ephedrine and guaifenesin always like to think that i can sketch, but i know differently.

even Yellow jacket ephedrine : when it comes to writing, i always think that i can, but am not sure that it's really good. if you'd been reading my blog back when i started it, you'd be seeing a much different blog. it's changed a lot over the year or so that i've been writing it. not that it's a bad thing for it to change, but it has and that's just the way it is.

my web page ephedrine and guaifenesin cute. it's simple, and currently is desperately in need of Ephedrine and guaifenesin : a make-over (which it will get, at some point soon), but my friends do all have cuter pages. but it's their style, not mine. and some of them are professional web designers, so i can't bust myself over that.

i'm beginning to wonder if i'm much more creative ephedrine and guaifenesin i do it in secret. when i was first writing my Ephedrine and guaifenesin, blog, no one was reading it. i mean no one. and then a few people started, but i didn't know it. it would freak me out when someone would say to me 'yeah i know, i read your blog everyday'. and now i know that people are reading it because it's a bit more advertised on my web page, and suddenly i don't know what to say, or worry that i'm boring, or feel very guilty when my day gets so busy i don't have even one minute to sit down with the computer and just blog.

when i was scrapbooking at first, and ephedrine and guaifenesin really know anyone here in the city, they were all for me. Yellow jacket ephedrine, now i know that people look at them, and i know more people at the workshops, and my style has changed.

i'm not criticizing ephedrine ephedrine and guaifenesin guaifenesin trying to say that everyone else is more creative than i am, or better than i am. i just have a unique style that is different than anyone elses, and for some reason, i crack under Ephedrine and guaifenesin : pressure. (just kidding). i'm re-reading this and worrying that some Yellow jacket ephedrine : of you will think that i'm being depressing, or hard on myself, and i guess it does sound that way. but that's not what i'm looking at here. i'm looking at the possible difference between desire and natural talent ... between me and others.

i think i have the desire to try anything ... to be creative, or just sit down and do something with my hands. Yellow jacket ephedrine : this may not be where my talent lies, and it may be why i feel like sometimes other's works megapro vasopro ephedrine better than ephedrine and guaifenesin (in who's eyes, i wonder?), but it's who i am and my talent lies in other places. like my handwriting. other scrappers are always jealous of my handwriting and want me to journal in their albums.

it's amazing to Ephedrine and guaifenesin - me how each and every person Yellow jacket ephedrine - is different. Yellow jacket ephedrine - i tease my mom because she always needs a sample of something before she can make one. she does a beautiful job, and has a nice touch, but she has to have a Ephedrine and guaifenesin, sample. but when i sit down with a blank slate, it takes me a long time to get the juices Ephedrine and guaifenesin - flowing. i may not need a sample, but i do need something to work from.

different. Yellow jacket ephedrine - creative. it's all different, and all good.

it's just my style.

hmm, i'm Ephedrine and guaifenesin - reading this over again, and my cross-stitch hobby springs into mind. one hobby that i have grossly neglected lately. now there is something i can do, and do well. although when given a pattern to follow, it's not so hard *hee hee*, but seriously, see, here is one area where my talent lies.

i wonder if i just like a challenge. i've always had the attitude of 'if someone else can do it, i can too' which is good. it doesn't mean that i can do it well, because ephedrine and guaifenesin don't all do everything well. this is the human nature aspect of life that seems to be what i'm thinking about today. i mean, if i didn't like a challenge, then wouldn't i only be cross stitching? instead of megapro vasopro ephedrine something new, trying to stretch my knowledge, expanding my skills and horizons.

i think that's it. i know where my creativity lies, where my natural talent Ephedrine and guaifenesin, is. and for some silly reason i'm currently indulging in hobbies that aren't where those exact natural talents are. i'm being more social these days.

it's my style.

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i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

so many things to do ... so many things to say ... and yet whenever i actually do find myself in front of the computer i can't think of anything to tell you all about.

i am trying to sort out some tax paperwork and such, and just Yellow jacket ephedrine : discovered today that my w-4 (federal withholding form) that i filed with work back in 1997 indicated that i'm a single person with one dependent.

what?? one dependent?

i called payroll, and she's like 'well, you said 1 under allowances'.

'allowances means dependents? why doesn't it just say dependent?'

' well that's what you told us.'

i must remember to thank the girl who did my benefit orientation 5 years ago. if i still have no idea what that form is about ephedrine and guaifenesin i surely was clueless then, as well.

this might explain why my taxes have been royally messed up for the past 5 years.

sigh.

and so now i'm paying some guy at Ephedrine and guaifenesin - H & R Block to take care of it.

money well spent, i'm sure. look - he already Ephedrine and guaifenesin, noticed that my w-4 is wrong.

sigh.

and then he tells me that my state pension ephedrine and guaifenesin issued tax-free when i retire ... if i stay in new york state. egads is there no end to catches?

and considering the landmark birthday i just passed, i decided to start a 403b retirement savings plan. how excited do you think i was when i found out that my employer does ephedrine and guaifenesin match contributions? yeah, about that much. somehow the public employees always end up with the short end of the stick.

ok, enough doldrums on this gray rainy day. time to go ephedrine and guaifenesin a krispy kreme doughnut ... there happens to be a store across the megapro vasopro ephedrine from the H&R Block on 72nd street so i bought a dozen for my staff in celebration of the ephedrine and guaifenesin 1st birthday week.

did i mention that it's raining? and Ephedrine and guaifenesin, 60F out? i'd tell you what 60F meant if i could figure it out.

enjoy!

the weekend has flown by and although i see that i'm being ephedrine and guaifenesin i don't feel like i'm being productive.

i did get my christmas shopping started at target last night ... that's productive.

i planned a rubber stamping evening for when i'm home at thanksgiving ... that was productive.

i have a bunch of stuff set out to take to storage (when i get home from work) ... that will be productive.

i'm at work right now ... that's productive.

ok, so i've ephedrine and guaifenesin productive. and my apartment is tidy, so there is an ongoing level of productiveness there.

while working, i've been reading my 'complete idiot's guide to dreamweaver mx' with the hope to redesign my website...

and as a result, i've started ephedrine and guaifenesin for new fonts ... Free fonts ... on the web. now i'm hopelessly lost in the wonderful world of fonts and the hard part is choosing only one for my site. i know that when i get home tonight, and after i move the bags and such to Ephedrine and guaifenesin - storage, i will spend the evening downloading fonts.

productive ... or not.

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you know it's going to be one of megapro vasopro ephedrine days when you hear on the morning news ...

"the UN General assembly is still in town so avoid 1st avenue in Ephedrine and guaifenesin - the 40's" ...

lovely. maybe Ephedrine and guaifenesin - i should just stay in bed.

well the sun is shining, the temperature is lovely, and the sky is blue.

you can't ask for more, really.

well, it could ephedrine and guaifenesin my day off ....

had back to back to back meetings today with a book order crammed in between.

but had the time, when walking to the subway at lunch, to tourist a bit in times square. i could walk through times square every day (which i Ephedrine and guaifenesin : don't) and see something significantly new each time. today it was the new mcdonald's ... i was pretty stunned with the scale of it ... and perhaps it's the nasty, scummy mcdonald's that is further up in the square that made this one so much the contrast ...

also walked by bryant Yellow jacket ephedrine : park today (the weather was lovely!) and they're busy getting ready for fashion week next week. i didn't take any Yellow jacket ephedrine : pictures but i'll be back there on wednesday ...

and now it's late and my body is catching up ephedrine and guaifenesin what the day has taken (well, that and the 5 loads of laundry i did tonight) ... Ephedrine and guaifenesin, i'm off to bed. i hope you can hang in with my infrequent updates ... thanks!

i've spent the day inside, exactly the same way i spent it one year ago. ephedrine megapro vasopro ephedrine guaifenesin only difference is that today was calm and reflective and nearly relaxing and last year was panicked, crisis mode, my friends turning up on my doorstep because they needed a Ephedrine and guaifenesin, place to go, a place to stay, a place to wait. i was thinking about how i need to do laundry today, and i remembered last year when i had to do laundry, also. my friend turned to me and said 'laundry? you're doing laundry?' i said 'i have to do laundry'. does that fall under the mother rule #1 Always wear clean underwear in case you end up in the hospital (which i've already employed once in my life and are not too anxious to do again, i might add)? Ephedrine and guaifenesin - or does it fall under laura's crisis rules Continue on calmly and all Ephedrine and guaifenesin : will ephedrine and guaifenesin fine. All will be fine. All will be fine.? hmm... not sure. i also had to go to the Ephedrine and guaifenesin, grocery store, and i was reminded of my friends and i in d'ags buying every item of food we could get our hands on. we spent nearly $200 on food that afternoon. the entire neighbourhood was in the grocery store doing exactly the same thing. it took hours to get through the cash lines because most of the credit card telecom lines were down. there was a tv sitting on the top shelf of one of the front units and it was going on and on and on about what we couldn't see but we all felt and heard and knew.

i've had the tv on today. megapro vasopro ephedrine i felt that i had to. i usually do on my ephedrine and guaifenesin days and i certainly did one year ago. i was afraid, today, Yellow jacket ephedrine, as i was one year ago, to not have it on. what if something happened and because i was watching a tape, or listening to a cd, or watching 'trading spaces' on tlc i wouldn't know.

i heard sirens today, on again and ephedrine and guaifenesin again. every time i heard one, i'd tense. same with airplanes flying overhead.

the tv was just on in the background. so ephedrine and guaifenesin was aware of what was happening, but not really absorbing. i prefer the live stuff over the prerecorded shows and documentaries. i remember last year when, after the towers fell, they kept replaying what had happened 'earlier today' ... the towers, with plumes of smoke billowing out of them. i needed them to stop playing that tape over and over again. it was making me feel as though maybe this time that they played it through it would have a different ending. that the towers were really still there. i could let myself believe that they were still there Ephedrine and guaifenesin : if i kept watching pictures and footage of them still being there.

in a way, i'm ephedrine and guaifenesin kind of like that. i keep looking for, and at, pictures of them. ephedrine and guaifenesin familiar and comfortable. and then it's even more of a shock when i see them not there. i feel like someone just took a marker the colour of the sky and painted over them. you know, like how you do in highschool yearbook when someone who wasn't on the boys basketball team Ephedrine and guaifenesin, sneaks in on photo day, and you have to get the art teacher to paint the brick wall over him? yeah, like that. except i guess today it would all be done on photoshop or something on the computer.

the president is down there right now, milling around with the families. people are trying to get autographs and have pictures taken. they're smiling and excited. i was watching this and feeling angry ... what is this? player's day at yankee stadium? people, do you forget why we're all here today?

but no, they haven't forgotten. i may have Ephedrine and guaifenesin, that luxury ... the luxury of being able to forget, but they can't. ever. all they need to do is look at any family photo, or just look around their ephedrine and guaifenesin at their children or families. they've spent the past year not forgetting. Ephedrine and guaifenesin - so i guess if they can forget, even for a moment, even while standing on the sacred soil of ground zero, to smile in a picture with the president, and get and autograph, who am i to judge them for that? who am i to feel angry at them for that? that's their luxury moment in time. a smile and the president. they've more than earned that.

i'm going out tonight to scrapbook with some friends. i've spent the afternoon writing devestatingly overdue thank you cards for my lovely Ephedrine and guaifenesin, birthday presents and party back in august. rubber stamping Ephedrine and guaifenesin, note cards for two new babies in my life (not mine ... don't worry.) celebrating friendship and life and renewal. creating new things with my hands and my mind.

i've also spent the day burning candles. the megapro vasopro ephedrine and warmth has made my apartment feel very cozy and loving. Yellow jacket ephedrine, a nice hug. a good feeling for a day like today.

mom emailed me and told me to be careful because 'good daughters are hard to find'. i emailed her back and said 'good moms and dads are hard to find, too, and for them to be careful as well.

i'm reminded today that Ephedrine and guaifenesin - we shouldn't feel safe and sound. Yellow jacket ephedrine, ephedrine and guaifenesin it's not over. just because one year has passed should we think that this can't happen again. but we must go on, and live our lives as best we can. and be comforted by the thought that we love and are loved and that it's all going to be ok. somehow, someday, it will all be ok.

it's late and i'm tired so i'm going to bed soon.

it's late tuesday night, or early wednesday morning. depending on how you look at it.

i went scrapbooking after work with dear friends cath and sonya. we all left together and decided to head to washington square park for a bit of the candle light vigil they were hosting this evening. an all-nighter.

it was a tad political for me. and ephedrine and guaifenesin ... how these people could be talking about peace megapro vasopro ephedrine the tones they had is beyond me ... yet that's what it was. we stuck around for a while, lit a few candles, and then was rewarded by a speech delivered by dr. martin luther king lll. truly inspirationa.

then we headed over to a falafel place on mcdougal ... never had a falafel, but heck why not? it was good. quite good.

and now i'm falling asleep on the computer so i'll write more in the morning.

wow what a quick weekend

spent friday ephedrine and guaifenesin with my web inspiration friend, who has got me started onto the right path of web design and creation. it's all about the software.

so, of course, i was a wiz at it friday while she was here, and then saturday i couldn't make anything work. so after work yesterday i stopped in at barnes & noble megapro vasopro ephedrine read a few dreamweaver Yellow jacket ephedrine, books and see if i could figure it out. the library doesn't have any books on the newest release of this particular ephedrine and guaifenesin (argh).

so i stood in the computer books area (an area of the store i have never set foot in before last night) and found the right place. i just started grabbing one of each, with the intention of sitting down and briefing through each one. well little did i know that ephedrine and guaifenesin were about 20 different books! so with a load in my arms i found the nearest window ledge and settled in.

finally ended up buying one. (sigh)

so while i'm standing in line, i'm looking around. ephedrine and guaifenesin totally suffer from attention deficit when i'm in a store. especially a book store. every single little thing grabs my attention from what i should be focusing on. so i look up and there a book about clutter and feng shui.

i pick it up. i've always been ephedrine and guaifenesin in feng shui but never bothered to read Yellow jacket ephedrine, about it. i have enough things to read never mind this new subject too.

i'm flipping through and everything it is saying is screaming out to me. ephedrine and guaifenesin that's me! that's Ephedrine and guaifenesin - how my clutter affects me! hey!! that's me, too!! that's why i have clutter!! this book was written for me!!! i must buy this book right now!!!!

sigh. so somehow i've been sucked into two follies. the impulse purchase shelves at barnes & noble, and the concept of Ephedrine and guaifenesin, buying a book to help clear clutter. seems like an oxymoron to me.

so i'm all set. i left the store with a shopping bag that sums it all up.

the idiots guide to dreamweaver mx, and clear your clutter with feng shui

it's ephedrine and guaifenesin how 2 books can say it all.

September 6, 2002

Tonight's New Moon in Virgo signals that it's time to begin a project involving detailed attention to organization. This weekend Yellow jacket ephedrine - could be one of piece by piece precision if you need to solve a complex puzzle.

my horoscope for the day. sounds about right.

have been cleaning more of my apartment. it's amazing to me how quickly stuff piles ephedrine and guaifenesin without notice.

found the Yellow jacket ephedrine, 'as seen on tv' catalogue that i mysteriously received in the mail a ephedrine and guaifenesin weeks ago. it's really good for a laugh.

* Personalized Flag Display Case - provides an enduring memorial for a deceased veteran (like if you did have a deceased veteran megapro vasopro ephedrine the family and wanted to have an enduring memorial for ephedrine and guaifenesin a person, wouldn't you spend more than 29.98 for it?)
* Old-Fashioned Philco Turntable is the Answer to a Music-Lover's Prayer
* Rolling Pants Trolley
* Deviled Egg Serving Tray
* John Deere Tractor Alarm Clock
* Hair Cutting Umbrella is an Essential Tool for the Home Stylist
* Alligator Bird Feeder
* Harley-Davidson Wall Clock Yellow jacket ephedrine, is "Born to Ride"!
* See-Thru Lipstick Tops Let You Spot Your Shade Without Removing the Cap
* Harley Cookbook is for ephedrine and guaifenesin who want to Rev Up a Real Biker Meal
* Solid Wood Memory Tray Keeps Precious Mementos on Display Yet Safe (dishwasher safe? i'd bet not)
* Mole Pole Protects Your Yard & Garden from Burrowing Rodents
* Toilet Seat Cover (ok this one is rather visual, but one is described Yellow jacket ephedrine, as "Felicity Fish, with her big eyes, bright red mouth, fins and tail, and those purple, pink and aqua stripes!" and the megapro vasopro ephedrine is "Conrad Cow")
* Personalized "Footprints" Bible Case
* Lawn Aerator Sandals
* Fibromyalgia Relief Book (ok, not making fun of the need for this book, but would you really buy it from this catalogue?)
* Get In & Out of your Car Effortlessly! Swivel Seat does the Work for You!
* Swedish Ephedrine and guaifenesin, Vein Lotion
* Mood Secret Reveals your Mood as you Polish your Nails! (mood colour changing nail polish)
* D-Snore Gives you a Snore-Free Night the Very First Night! (described as "just spray this ephedrine and guaifenesin formula to the throat before going to sleep and enjoy a snore-free rest)
* Yellow jacket ephedrine, Fighting Robots Book
* Exotic Dancing Video is No Ordinary Aerobics Workout
* Patriotic Star Icicle Lights
* Military Wall Clock
* Welcome Dog is More than just a Pretty Face (described as "Just like a real dog, he'll bark to let you know when someone's coming, as the lantern he carries lights up! Is it magic? No, it's his motion Yellow jacket ephedrine, sensor! And better yet, you won't have to feed him, or clean up after Ephedrine and guaifenesin - him. Uses 2 AA batteries (not incl.). Has on/off switch."
* Apple Appliance Covers
* Bandito Yellow jacket ephedrine - Dog Costume
* Wolf Lamp
* Oo-La-La, Bikini Beer Glasses!
* "Cow on Barn" Salt & Pepper Set
* Lighthouse Toilet Brush Set
* Write your megapro vasopro ephedrine Legal Will
* Porcelain Bisque Angel Nightlight
* Candle Safe - Now Here's Yellow jacket ephedrine : a Clever Hiding Place!
* Fishing Reel Toilet Tissue Dispenser
* St. Bernard Toilet Tissue Holder
* Farting Slippers (described as " 'break wind' as you walke. They're a gas! One size Ephedrine and guaifenesin, fits all")
* Dale Earnhardt Clock with Authentic Race Sounds (personally Ephedrine and guaifenesin : i think this one is tasteless)
* Stick-On Bible Tabs for Fast Easy Reference
* Photo Thimble Keeps Loved Ones As Close megapro vasopro ephedrine your Fingertips
* Glow-In-The-Dark Toilet Seat
* Bellydancing Video Set
* Glow-In-The-Dark Pebbles (described as ephedrine and guaifenesin a unique addition to your walkways, driveway, garden borders, even indoor planters!")
* Shimmering Satin Wrap-Aroiund Bed Ruffle Fits any Mattress (thank goodness! for a minute i was worried it wouldn't fit my bed)
* Rooster Switchplate & Outlet Covers
* Glow Sensor Owl Scares Away Garden Pests
* Ladybug Stepping Stones
* Guardian Angel Wall Clock
* Watermelon Bird Feeder

alright, i'm not actually disparaging any of these products, and to any of you who actually own them, good for you! the funny thing about this is that they're ephedrine and guaifenesin together in one catalogue and the descriptions reminded me of the J. Peterman catalogue. refer to elaine's boss on Seinfeld ... the way mr. peterman spoke is actually the way their catalogues read.

you know, Yellow jacket ephedrine, i clearly remember the first day of school as a child. what i remember the most was how on the news that morning they would always remind everyone to drive carefully as the school buses were back on the road. i found that amusing because i didn't Yellow jacket ephedrine, take a school bus.

i wish that this morning the news people had Ephedrine and guaifenesin - warned about the morning commute. the school buses didn't slow me down, but the mass of people trying to get to their schools sure did.

there was the lovely moment on the bus when a mom Ephedrine and guaifenesin - and her daughter were chatting nervously between themselves about which stop to get ephedrine and guaifenesin at for laguardia high school, which other bus Yellow jacket ephedrine - they'd have to transfer to, or subway to take, or how many blocks to walk. the woman sitting in front of Yellow jacket ephedrine - me piped up and asked if she had heard correctly and were going to laguardia h.s.? and when they said yes, she told them that they could just take the bus around the Ephedrine and guaifenesin - corner and it would let them off 1 block away from the school's doors. then she said 'you can come Ephedrine and guaifenesin, with me ... i'm going there too.' it was so nice to see what was clearly a ephedrine and guaifenesin 9th grader with her mom sigh with relief and thank this woman profusely. they smiled at each other and i could tell that mom was pleased that the commute wouldn't be as difficult as they had thought for her.

thank goodness i commute home at 6, not at 3. welcome back to school!

today i am one step closer ephedrine and guaifenesin being a real new yorker ...

i got a manhattan mini-storage unit.

it has finally occured to me that i can't live the way i like to live in the space i have. i love my apartment dearly, Ephedrine and guaifenesin, and although i could find a 2 bedroom apartment in a borough somewhere for half of what i'm paying now, i've decided to become a manhattan-ite and get a storage unit.

it was like applying for Ephedrine and guaifenesin - a lease for an apartment ... took almost an megapro vasopro ephedrine to fill out all the forms, i was given an electronic pass card, and 2 keys for the locks ... had to pay first month's rent and security deposit, take out insurance (mental note to self: call insurance company tomorrow and see if homeowners insurance covers off-site storage) ... i was in a state of shock when i was done, but very happy.

packing Yellow jacket ephedrine - things Yellow jacket ephedrine - up for storage sparked an entire rearrangment of my apartment (What was i thinking??) ... and, of course, it's been Ephedrine and guaifenesin - raining all day, so the idea of moving things even just 6 blocks away from here in the rain is not cool. the rain stopped for about an hour and i ran a bunch of stuff over. imagine my bliss when things that seemed to take up all the space in the world in my apartment were swallowed up in the unit and left so much more space.

so basically, i just got myself a basement. it just so happens to be on 62nd street.

you can check out the ephedrine and guaifenesin ephedrine and guaifenesin the pictures area. luckily now one was around to see me taking the pictures *hee hee*.

welcome to new york.