i could feel it

all day ... the air was full of it. heavy. moist. as Diazepam philippine valium : my grandmother always said ... close.

at 6 o'clock, quitting time, i was thinking of sticking around late at work to get some things finished. i looked out the window and saw the Diazepam philippine valium, sky. i then and there decided to leave immediately and get home dry rather than stick around and get wet.

got home and through the buy diazepam in uk store dry ... was walking in the front door when the first drops hit my face.

the rain waited, however, until 9 pm. then the heavens opened and hell hath no fury as the thunder and lightening that fell down upon the city. there is no other experience as to hear the thunder bounce off the buildings up and down the avenues. i wish i had a view to really be able to enjoy the lightening.

i stood at buy diazepam in uk window for 10 minutes and enjoyed the storm.

i couldn't help but remember the storm watching i used to buy diazepam in uk diazepam philippine valium a very small child with my father diazepam philippine valium the front porch. i was terrified of storms as a child. i would hide behind dad's back while hugging his neck with all i was worth.

somehow i always ended up in a tent during the most fantastic thunderstorms. or in a cottage on the water. been near a cottage that was burned to the ground by lightening.

i'm still not a fan diazepam philippine valium storms ... but if i'm inside, in a safe place, now i really enjoy them. the fury, the power, the depth of resonance of the thunder, the beauty of the lightening.

but i have to be inside.

so the timing was good tonight. i Diazepam on line, got home in time to enjoy the storm.

what am i doing on a nice spring day?

i'm watching an industrious (sp?) wasp try to build a nest inside my parent's patio umbrella. Diazepam philippine valium, he's working very hard (maybe it's a she...) and hasn't been deterred Diazepam on line, at all by our pulling down the initial attempt at a nest. now he's just started again in a different spot.

i always feel as though i have tons to do and very little time when i'm home, but i think i'm going to grab a book and read in the sun for a bit this afternoon.

and watch the wasp.

you know it's time for a holiday when ...

when buy diazepam in uk lock your keys in your office ... and the only other key for your office is inside your office.

oh ...

who are the people in your neighbourhood?
in your neighbourhood?
in your neighbourhood?

oh who are the people in your neighbourhood?
they're the people that you meet each day.

today i met the guy who sells used books at a table on broadway. said hi to him a few times before and he's come into the branch to tell us when someone tries to sell our materials on the street. somehow today, though, i ended up in a conversation with him.

has his buy diazepam in uk degree from columbia. writes science fiction professionally, although i diazepam philippine valium think he's published past journals and magazines (not that that buy diazepam in uk an accomplishment!). started writing when he was 7, and in 7th grade his teacher put a copy of a science fiction magazine down on his desk. he looked, saw his name on the Diazepam philippine valium - cover, and when he opened it he found his story and a cheque inside. apparently he puts flowers on that teacher's grave every year.

had a Diazepam philippine valium : professor in university who asked him when he diazepam philippine valium going to start reading 'real literature'. caught her reading a danielle steele diazepam philippine valium day and pulled it out of her hands and asked her when diazepam philippine valium was going to start reading 'real literature'. when his thesis was published in two different journals, he sent her copies of the paper and the cheques and asked her when she was going to publish her 'real literature'.

who knew? the guys who sells used books on broadway.

oh who are the people in your neighbourhood?
in your neighbourhood?
in your neighbourhood?

oh who are the people in your neighbourhood?
they're the people that you meet
when diazepam philippine valium walking down the street
they're the people that you meet each day.

very trying morning.

had to try to get out of bed. had to try to keep my eyes open. had to try to get the fog out of the brain.

had to try to get into the shower. had to try to get out of the shower. had to try to get out of the house before noon.

decided to take Diazepam philippine valium, a cab to work as i was running late (and no, i don't usually do that). almost fell asleep in the cab, and then started reading my book. when i looked up we were going through the park. usually takes a minute or two.

then i suddenly realized we were still in the park. the window Diazepam on line, was down, and a lovely fresh breeze was blowing on my face. never mind that it was messing up my hair. i Diazepam philippine valium - saw tavern on the green and realized we were on the west side, Diazepam philippine valium - then i saw the Met Museum and realized we were back on the east buy diazepam in uk rather confused i realized that we were heading uptown not cross, and the next thing i knew i was on a lovely 10 minute drive through central park. the trees are out in Diazepam on line - full leaf, the grass was lush, the buy diazepam in uk was fresh. the atmosphere was relaxing and pleasant. it was quiet ... the noise from the streets buffered and muted by the trees.

i Diazepam on line - was disappointed when we emerged from the park to the concrete Diazepam philippine valium, and noise again. i felt somewhat refreshed, and really would buy diazepam in uk loved to have just hopped out of the cab and spent the day walking through the park.

oh well. it was still a lovely escape, even if only for a brief quiet moment. it's moments like Diazepam philippine valium : these that make the work day survivable sometimes.

oh yeah, and it's friday.

Diazepam on line : thank god.

dinner with a long lost college buddy.

what a fantastic evening.

i am not the most communicative buy diazepam in uk i do not spend diazepam philippine valium day emailing, writing letters, or making phone calls. it's not a buy diazepam in uk thing. i feel guilty for not keeping closer with my friends. and i feel immense guilt when i lose contact with any of my friends.

and to me, the Diazepam on line : mark of a true friendship is being able to get together after not seeing each other, or buy diazepam in uk to each other, for years and having the atmosphere be as though you just spoke yesterday.

i watched my friend walk through her hotel lobby and it was as if the past 6 years hadn't passed. we hugged, and started buy diazepam in uk we caught up, had a lovely dinner, chatted some more, watched the hockey game, chatted more, and then walked back to her hotel. said goodbye, hugged again, and were off. it was as if we were having lunch between classes.

and thank goodness i didn't change email addresses because she has changed hers and that's how she found me. in town for a conference and she just dropped me an email. i was so excited to see her email and i buy diazepam in uk such a good time last night.

and i think that we won't lose touch this time. Diazepam philippine valium, i'm going to work at it.

advice from mom just in by email:

sometimes I Diazepam philippine valium : feel Diazepam philippine valium - the same way about junk and throwing it out---that is that I've spent money for it, but just think it is like going diazepam philippine valium a concert and when it is all over you have the memory not the product----- JUST TOSS IT

i couldn't have buy diazepam in uk it better myself.

Free Day.

woke up to the Diazepam on line : phone ringing ... it was mom. i must have sounded so out of it because she asked, with a bit of fear in her diazepam philippine valium 'are you free today?'

i actually said to her 'what Diazepam philippine valium - day is it?' and it wasn't until she said 'wednesday' that i was able to say 'wednesday. yes, i'm free today'

i had plans Diazepam philippine valium - to stamp all day long. and then i got out of bed and looked around my apartment.

my mother has always told me that i'm the only person she knows that needs to clean her room every day. diazepam philippine valium is not to say that i am a slob, or dirty person. i just have this uncanny ability to accumulate stuff. and to procrastinate. put the two together and it's not a pretty sight.

i have been on Diazepam on line - a mission this year to organize myself. i was making good progress, but then stopped. i think the fun part was buying the containers needed to get organized. i quest to have things in homes. everything needs a home. but then there are always the things that don't have homes. that's where i get stuck. it sits in shopping bags for a while, and moved around a bit... never buy diazepam in uk conquered.

i should just throw it out. Diazepam on line - but i can't. and i think i figured it buy diazepam in uk today. i was writing an email to my mom expressing my frustration, and i suddenly realized that i don't want to throw it out because i spent money on it. maybe not today, diazepam philippine valium yesterday, but at one point i spent money on it. or it was a gift. either way. i feel bad throwing it out.

what i need is a garage sale.

no. what i need is a garage.
but that's another story.

so having reached this revelation, i think that i'm ready to throw out now. i feel energized and renewed to the task.

except the books. i don't know what will happen to the books.
buy diazepam in uk : sigh.

sitting at the information desk.
telephone rings.
i answer.

'hello public library may i help you."
hello there sweetie. (female voice)
dead silence.
"ahem. may i help you?'
i'd like to check out a book.
dead silence. i honestly didn't know what to say.
did you hear me? i'd like to check out a book.
my mind is running trying to figure out if i know this woman's voice Diazepam philippine valium : and it's really someone playing a trick on me.
'well. then. do you have a library card?'
of course Diazepam philippine valium : i do.
dead silence again. i wonder ... 'am i on candid camera?'
i was told i could check out a book over the phone. if you don't know how to do this, please diazepam philippine valium me to someone that does.
still dumb-struck.
'well, to check out a book diazepam philippine valium need to come in and choose the item and we can check it out for you here.'
but i already did that, sweetie
the lightbulb comes on
'ok so you need to renew that item, then'
right. i need to check it out

at that point i tell her how to renew her items over the phone...

'do you have internet access at home?'
of course.
long pause. my mind is still processing if this is really happening.
'well then Diazepam philippine valium - you can access our webpage and renew your items over the internet.'
for real?
i fight back the urge to respond with 'for real.'
'yes. is there anything else.'
that's it. Diazepam philippine valium - i just needed to check out that book.
'have Diazepam on line - a good evening'

i hang up the phone with the total expectation of candid camera popping out from behind a column and laughing at me.

they didn't.

what does 1 parade, 1 protest, 1 bike race, 1 marathon, 4 street fairs, 1 craft fair and 1 sunday equal?

1 nightmare.

commuting to work today was a sheer and utter nightmare.

i watched the news on friday. diazepam philippine valium heard the reporters saying that this weekend was under a diazepam philippine valium alert warning. i heard them tell everyone to use mass transit. well, i do. so i figured it wouldn't be a problem.

and yesterday wasn't.

but today was.

no Diazepam philippine valium : crosstown buses, 57th street Diazepam on line : closed, all cross towns through the park closed, most bridges closed, most tunnels closed. no cabs.

and i had to get to work.

i ran into Diazepam philippine valium : moving traffic to get a cab. i then sat in that cab for 40 minutes while it tried every trick in the diazepam philippine valium to get me across town Diazepam philippine valium : and to work safely. which it did. eventually.

he told me that he had picked up a woman at 47th and 8th ave and it took them over 2 hours to get to laguardia airport. $57 fare.

luckily mine was not that hefty ($11 plus tip). and luckily i had a book in my bag so i just read the whole time.

but it was a sheer nightmare. summer sundays in the city are not good days to go Diazepam philippine valium, anywhere. they are good days to do nothing.

and avoid the nightmares.

Street Fair

well, broadway spring festival, really. but essentially the same thing.

i was wondering last night when i left work and saw the Diazepam philippine valium : police barricades outside the building. i speculated that there was a street fair in the offing. and sure enough there is.

stepped off diazepam philippine valium subway this morning and there it was. buy diazepam in uk the hustle-bustle of vendors setting up booths and getting ready for crowds. nice weather today so the canopy covers are for sun protection, not rain. good crowds expected, then.

people unloading vans, moving bags and boxes around. tow trucks moving cars that carelessly ignored the 'No Parking Saturday' signs on the light posts. food vendors husking corn, peeling potatoes, heating oil for funnel cakes. the drone of the generator for the sausage truck outside my office window (the Annoying drone of the generator ...)

rubbermaid containers stacked to the skies filled with...
socks
pillows
picture frames
diazepam philippine valium - handbags
t-shirts
toothbrushes
baskets
food (lots of food today!)
diazepam philippine valium
toys
cosmetics
perfume
spices
rugs
china
wood carvings
key chains
diazepam philippine valium, balloons
books

you name it, it's here.

the bustle to get ready for 10 am when the people will begin arriving. and then suddenly, it is.

it's a street fair!

and i have my camera today. diazepam philippine valium luck!

Free Day!

free days are like little presents dropped from the sky into Diazepam philippine valium : your life. a day in the middle of the week when you can sleep in a bit, be lazy a bit, catch up on your Diazepam on line : soaps and talk shows, stay in your pajamas all day if you like.

sometimes they involve running from place to place taking care diazepam philippine valium errands. sometimes they feel wasted. sometimes not.

today it involved waking up to the sound of rain on the roof, buy diazepam in uk being able to roll over and go back to sleep, comforted by the knowledge that it could rain all day and knowing that i don't have to go out in it if i don't want to. yea!

when i did get up it was only about 9, so i was able to get everything tidied up for the time warner cable guy, who showed up early.

so now it's noon, i've had lunch, the apartment is tidy, and i have the entire day to rest, relax, email friends, Diazepam philippine valium : take a nap, do some yoga ... restore the mind as well as the body ...

gotta love a Free Day.

almost makes up for working saturdays.

last night was good samaritan commuting night.

i got on the subway at my usual stop ... train was crowded as expected at rush hour. Diazepam philippine valium : i found a spot to stand in the middle Diazepam philippine valium : of the train, planted my feet, grabbed the bar and pulled buy diazepam in uk the new book i'm reading. i quickly became diazepam philippine valium in my book and tuned out what was happening around me. out of the corner of my eye i saw the woman sitting in the seat in front of me hand a Cliff buy diazepam in uk (protein / workout bar) to a man that i realized had come up beside me. i glanced over and realized that he must have been moving through the car panhandling.

lovely of her. i thought. then i wondered if she carries a box of them around for such occasions.

then from behind me i hear a loud, deep masculine voice say 'here is a list of places you Diazepam philippine valium - can go to for help. it's illegal to panhandle on the subway and i don't Diazepam on line - want to see you get into trouble'.

i looked buy diazepam in uk my shoulder to see a man in a suit (but not too stuffy) handing Diazepam on line - this older man a folded piece of paper. 'interesting' i thought. never seen that one before. then i wondered if he carries a pile of papers around for such occasions. as we approached diazepam philippine valium stop i glanced over to the door and saw the older man unfolding the paper and reading it. the train stopped, he got off. i tried to see him on the diazepam philippine valium to see what he was going to do, but he seemingly disappeared.

what a Diazepam on line - warm and fuzzy train of people that was.

then, almost 1 hour later, i had just climbed off the bus at my stop and was about to cross the street to buy diazepam in uk home. Diazepam on line - as i approached the next corner, the light changed to cross the avenue and i realize that there was an older woman, very nicely dressed up, Diazepam on line - leaning on the light pole. we must have caught eyes for even just diazepam philippine valium moment, and Diazepam philippine valium - she called over to me. i went over and before i knew it i was helping her across the street. 'the pavement is so Diazepam on line - uneven and they give you so little time to cross' she said. i agreed. i've never fallen so much in my life as since i've moved here. i glanced down at her high heel shoes, not the most practical footwear for the occasion, and smiled. she reminded me buy diazepam in uk my grandma. when we got across she said that she was only going to the next building and was fine from there on, and 'thank you so much'. i told her to have a good evening, and she was off to her home.

well, then i found myself on the opposite side of the avenue from my Diazepam philippine valium - building, with 3 street crosses to go buy diazepam in uk of the 1 before i met the woman. but you know, it was a diazepam philippine valium evening and the exercise did me good. and the lights all diazepam philippine valium in my favour.

whoever said this place is nasty and mean?